Beautiful Belly

So it’s been about 9 ½ that I’ve had this little ball of life in my belly and it’s still very hard to believe the reality or what is about to happen. I am about to give birth to this beautiful little girl wriggling and rolling about in my tummy as I write this. I am not gonna lie, I’ve pretty much hated every second of being pregnant, it has not been a magical experience for me as it has for other women. Yes, I’ve enjoyed feeling her little kicks and punches but she’s gonna be strong like mommy, I can tell because I haven’t been enjoying them the last few weeks lol. 

                With the help of my best friend Jamila by my side throughout this whole process she has helped document one of the most important moments in my life. My pregnancy photos. I am in love with them. And of course, they were no easy task, lighting was not cooperating, my hair wasn’t doing what I wanted, but what made it perfect was my beautiful round belly of life and of course a very talented photographer with some magic editing skills.

                My husband and I are terrified (but excited) to be parents mostly because we don’t know what to expect. The unknown is always a scary place to be but I couldn’t be more thankful that I have him to share it with. My mother was not as fortunate as I am to have someone to help her, be there for her, and someone to even ask questions to. I am very lucky for the support system that I have, family, friends, and even coworkers! For all the women who have done this more than once (multiple pregnancies) and/or doing it alone my utmost respect goes out to you. We as women are strong and resilient creatures but you guys really are survivors and amazing human beings.

All photos taken and edited by Jamila Pierre

All photos taken and edited by Jamila Pierre

Baby Love

      I thought it would never happen. I never thought it was possible. But, apparently it is. I'm pregnant. Why did I never think it was possible? Well it's been a while since I've been in the game of love and I will admit it's not for lack of trying. And, to be honest I just had this feeling. Well, my body said "sorry your wrong". After about a year and a half it happened. I am officially preggers.
     What does that mean to me? Not what I thought it would. This is my first time being pregnant and I have never had friends or people close to me in my life that have been pregnant so I was kinda of walking into the unknown. I only knew what I've seen on tv and movies (I know that's a cliche thing to say but it's true). I thought I would be throwing up in the morning when I woke up before work and I'd be jolly for the rest of the day and be on my merry way. That is NOT what it's like. Before you get it twisted I want you to know I am overjoyed to be having a child! But, so far it has been anything that I thought it would be. For those of you who do not like details or TMI things I would stop reading because I am about to keep it real.
     I knew I'd get sick and be nauseas. But, no one informed me that morning sickness is not exclusive to the am hours. Then again it may be for some woman. I know when people are sick in any way shape or form it is exclusive to them but, I know it is not just me who experiences all day sickness. A little warning would have been nice lol.
     One of the most unspoken of symptoms in my opinion, that I really wasn't ready for had to be constipation. Now it might be very spoken about but I've never heard it mentioned. To be honest I've heard this term thrown around most of my life and knew what it meant but never experienced it. It was a rude awakening for me. I already have a slow metabolism so I'm not a bathroom frequenter anyway but let me tell you at first it was very much driving me crazy and was extremely uncomfortable. When I wasn't even starting to get big I felt like the house I am soon to be.
      For my last symptom that I've been experiencing as recently as this week is dizziness/vertigo. I may or may not have disclosed this in a previous blog post before but I am now. I have MS (multiple sclerosis) and I am extremely lucky and fortunate to have it as under control as I do but, vertigo is and has been for years one of my most prevalent symptoms. This was nothing new and I was sort of prepared for it. Like I said its prevalent in my life but is most experienced in the summer months for me since heat usually aggregates it. It has been cool for a while so I've had a nice break from it. I also don't want to take anything for it as I usually have in the past because I don't know if it's safe for the baby. And to be honest even if the Internet tells me if it's safe I trust no one. I already feel guilty for popping a "safe" Tylenol after my three day marathon headache and even when I need a pump of my inhaler I get a little nervous. I just want my baby to be as healthy as possible.
     I can't wait for my baby to get hear. I am over joyed, nervous, thrilled, and scared to death! I especially can't wait to find out what I'm having. There will be lots of sacrifices that have already started but I know they will be all worth it. Even all these new bodily surprises are truly worth it and I can't wait for the next 25 weeks to fly by!

All photos taken and edited by Jamila Pierre a.k.a. Naught Couture

Where I Found it:

Sunglasses: Forever21 $7.90

Top: I was sent a link by my bestie on Amazon of this cute top and I had to have it. Tank from Tee Stars $19.99

Tank & Leggings: Purchased from Forever21 leggings$5.90 

Shoes: Purchased in Atlantic City in the Converse outlet store $35